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Innocuous Gift

August 19th, 1982

I must ask what to do, as I always must when the question comes to me. The question comes to me on the wing, as all things come to me I know not who. Indeed my very being is an innocuous gift, my being a mystery. From depths of my psyche I have arrived here only not to know what to do. In the depths of this difficulty, I wonder why.

Fairly clear day, nice breeze, sunny & light, warm to cook, very busy at the Woods.

So I will ask God to send me a means to the answer. Immediately he says: “Do the right thing.” Others have said: “Do what you feel” or “Do what you feel you should do.”

But all things are not so easy and all answers do not plumb the depths. Wisdom demands I tread the path between reality & the soul, which is the path of the highest language–poetry.

Love. do I love

poetry: [I am working toward a personal poetry, a personal language]

Brown hair, freckles, smiles, soft young perky,

voice on the phone, like Rosemarie’s

a true account of the actual

and telling the story of my love

The story of my love, in pictures, images, smells, & trees.

The love of summer and confidence in the rainbow.

Attention with a mind toward you

Images of St. Francis of Assisi, with birds, blessing the flowers.

Nights of love, days of skies filled with silver-lined clouds.

Dreams of passages, of melting curls of smoke

Of wisps of mist rising over a meadow with a stone-circle.

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